The title pretty much says it all.
I am feeling so many things right now. Elation. Pride. Fulfillment. Too many happy things to list out. It has taken me over a year to lose it, thanks to a complete 180° turnaround where I gave up for almost six months . Of course, I would have preferred this journey to be a steady climb instead of falling back to base camp, but c’est la vie. I have a food addiction problem along with depression and anxiety, and overcoming that means I’m going to get tripped up by my own traitorous brain sometimes. It’s why I’m doing keto in the first place. It keeps me away from all of my “problem” foods. So if you’re following this blog because you’re hoping for one of those “I lost 200 lbs in a week” type of stories, you’re in the wrong place lol!
Along with all the happiness, however, there’s also just a tiny bit of self-doubt. That inner bitch who keeps telling me I won’t be able to keep going. That I still weigh 350 lbs. That I won’t be able to truly change. To just give up now and go back to the junk and carbs where it’s comfortable and familiar. All those horrible things that I wouldn’t ever say to a friend if they were going through their own journey. Yet I have no problem saying it to myself.
Can someone find me a muzzle so I can shut her up? 😂😂😂
In all seriousness, this puts me at 25% of the way to 200lbs lost. Seeing it typed up like that gives me so much hope.
Maybe this time…
I can do it.