3-Month Update

Popping in for a quick update since I realized I haven’t posted since the end of May. Oops.

I’ll get the number out of the way first, since I’m sure that’s what most people are curious about. I am down 30 lbs in just over 3 months. (Total since starting my keto journey is 45 lbs since I was still down about 15 from the first time.) Not a bad number really. Do I wish it were more? Well, duh. Thanks to social media, I will always compare my journey to others’ because I just can’t seem to help myself. But at the end of the day, this really is my own, unique journey and it’s unlike anyone else’s.

The biggest struggle I have been having recently is overcoming my addiction to using food as a coping mechanism. It’s what I have done almost my entire life, and that doesn’t just go away after a few weeks or months, or probably even years. It’s something I will likely struggle with forever. Which is rather disheartening when you see it typed out in black and white. But at the same time, coming to terms with that is what has kept me going this entire time. Have I had setbacks? Of course. I’m human. These last couple of weeks have been especially difficult because I dropped into one of my depressions and the desire to tuck those feelings away with food was so freaking strong. And I did give in on a few of those days and jumped head first back into the land of carbs.

And I realized something. The food didn’t actually do anything for me. Well, it did while I was physically eating it and for a short time afterward, but within an hour I was right back to being depressed and moody. I also felt like absolute garbage after each “cheat day” because my system isn’t used to eating like that anymore. I told my husband he better remind me of that the next time I want a cheat day lol. It soooo wasn’t worth it! Ugh.

So I turned to other things to make myself feel better. I journaled some more. I’m 3/4 of the way through my journal now, which is absolutely mind-boggling to me since normally I wouldn’t fill one up after 3 years, let alone 3 months. I cranked out art in a way I haven’t in years. I played around with my collection of makeup, even though I literally only leave the house to go grocery shopping most weeks. These things didn’t magically make my depression go away. The only thing that does make it go away is time. Acknowledging that and knowing that it WILL go away, is what got me through it. And what got me to jump right back on the keto train after I got sidetracked in Carbville.

That’s how I know this time really is different. Whenever I would “fail” like that previously, I would be unbelievably hard on myself, tell myself I’m hopeless, worthless, etc. and give up completely. But I’m not giving up. I am just five little pounds away from 50 total lost, and you bet your butt I will get there.

Taking selfies after playing around with makeup. Didn’t notice how much weight I’ve lost in my face until I saw this!

2 thoughts on “3-Month Update

  1. Thanks for sharing your journey. I’m reading along and rooting for you to reach your goals. As someone on this journey as well, I hope you remember that the number on the scale doesn’t tell the whole story and while it’s great to follow the journey of others and get inspired by their results, comparing yourself, your progress, and your results to others is a losing proposition! You are unique and this is your journey, so just do you! Losing weight is a great goal but there is also the part about feeling good on the inside and when you feel good on the inside, it shows on the outside, and way more than the number you see on the scale. Best wishes

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    1. Thank you! I have to remind myself all the time that the number is just that, a number. I feel better, my clothes are fitting better than they have in years, and my mindset about life in general is slowly getting better. You totally get it, and it’s nice knowing there are others out there that are right there with me. 🙂

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